Have Feet, Will Dance...

Whenever I think of dance, words that come to my mind are, “have feet….will dance”.
Six months ago, dance was confined to four walls of my room only. Then I come to know about Dance classes by leading institute SDIPA i.e. Shiamak Davar Institute for Performing Arts. Well, the idea behind joining classes was to remove stage fear!!!!!!!!

But soon I realized, it’s just not a hobby, time pass…….it was a passion!!!! I had this opportunity of dance in my college only, but, again the same stage fear comes in between. I am sure many of us face the same fear. Two years, were over & I was still thinking of giving auditions. I hated it because I don’t have that much courage to go and perform. Dance confined within four walls is never judged. But AUDITIONS!!!!!!!!!

Auditions were a different ball game altogether. I even practiced a whole week before the audition. But standing outside the audition hall, only gave me jitters.
No no….no, I can’t perform. I quit!! The feeling of stepping back filled me with so much of remorse and I decided to at least I will give a try next time! Next time, I missed audition and my friends who were there and most importantly had that courage to perform were selected. And then...

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Hosting with Google, Afghanistan Endgame, War over Corruption and a Flat Tyre

And it went down. You might have noticed that jammyspeaks.com was down for past few hours. How it happened? Well, I was trying to figure out a way to host blogger on my own hosting, but it looks that blogger does not provide for this. So, I have to share hosting with Google only..!!
And yeah, the site went down for the first time in 3 years...!

Well, this blog post was to handle some serious issues. By this, I mean, I intended to talk about the endgame being planned for Afghanistan right now by the US and other nations including UK, Russia among others. And how Afghanistan is being used by different countries as a way to show their supremacy or for some selfish reason. The fact remains that the situation in Afghanistan is really critical right now and the decisions has to be taken very carefully.

Also, I wanted to talk about the 2nd innings of 'Satyagraha' in India, and how vague the idea sounds now. How in all these talks of the war between civil society and government, we are forgetting the main player, our nation. How it is being used by many as nothing but another way to shoot engines of money making machines. And how all these 'big' players are playing with emotions of super emotional Indians.

Also I wished to talk about the death of an artist. Death of an artist who was already murdered some six years ago. These are the things that are filling up the prime slot of all the major news channel, the pages of daily and my mind. And I would be coming forward with my point of view, my opinion over these topics soon.

Well among other reason (experiments with hosting), one another reason I did not write a full fledged argumentative passage is 'Flat Tyre'. Yeah, a flat tyre. I was in full mood to write up the post while I was returning home today. But I have not even driven a mile when I felt something odd, and saw this 'flat tyre'. Trust me, in scorching heat of Delhi, a flat tyre is not a nice sight. But nothing could be done now. The tyre was flat and it had to be changed. And when I ended up with the change of tyres,  I was fully drenched in sweat and just wanted to lay down.

My opinion over the subjects I touched upon initially in the post would come soon and you may find it a touch critical or orthodox, whichever way you put it. But till then its a wrap up.

And the life goes on...

28th December 2010. Yes, I remember the exact date when I wrote last here. Yes there had been a few posts here and there, some about photography, some about marketing. But not my views on me and the world surrounding me. And trust me, I don't like this fact. But as they say, it is never too late to make amends. So starting from today, I would like to make at least 2 posts a week. (100 for the year. Not bad..!!) That's what am gonna try, but no promises.

It has been nearly six months since that last dramatic post about how college life is gonna end. In these six months, a lot of things happened, many firsts, some fights, some love, some this, some that. But the most important thing, they all taught me one thing that nothing is constant. Everything, everyone and every relationship changes (especially relationship). Every relation has its highs and lows. It has its phases and most of them do get stagnant, though they could be relived..!

These six months were a pain, but also brought me close to some of the people, read friends. I also got to know, that there are many around here who don't like you for many reasons (some of them very genuine) but there are some who really like you for various reasons (again, many of them are really genuine..!!).

This time was also about various rules that I set up for myself, and though till the end of the semester, I had broken most of them. there was a rule, Family first. Then there was a rule, To hell with the world. there was one, getting serious and there was one, being punctual. Many of them, and all of them broken..!

This was also a time when various other things happened, like another blog, a portal, a college fest, a broken dream, a broken leg, a mission accomplished, a tag of winner, petty fights, many memories, many other rules, some experiments, a world cup and tonnes of exam (as usual), and all of these in last six months. All in all, some nice moments coupled with some nice people made it a nice time to live.

Yes, there was another rule, more of a realization, And the life goes on...

P.S.
And after all these things, here I am sitting trying to write a nice 'I am back' post and also know that am 'not' doing a very good job. But that's what I am. And with the promise of writing more often, I sign off.
During all these major happenings in my life in previous months, I started many a post but was not able to complete them and the pile of my draft increased a lot and I plan to publish them. So, don't be shock if I am here tomorrow telling you about how I celebrated this new year..!

Its all about celebrating your life..!

This is your life.
Years go by and nothing is as you imagined it would be.

Hope is exquisite, and at times, exquisitely disappointing. The love you always thought was love is shadowy and elusive. Dreams you dare to dream feel like wide-open doors to giant letdowns.

Teetering between the person you were, and the person you are becoming...
And this, all this in-between is your life. It is you.

You who is still wandering to know why he is here.
You who still looks for the reason for his existence.
You who still wanna know why it all happened to him.
You who still asks God, Why me??
You who still cries for all those missed opportunities.
You who is not satisfied and says, I deserved better..
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Life is all about living..!

"Life has not been too good recently. There have been many hiccups and I have been struggling to find the real me. I don't know what's happening, and I really seek a change."

This was my Facebook status some days back. And I meant every bit of it. But then suddenly something happened. I don't know how? Was it a chat with a stranger. Or a message by a friend. Was it a poem I read or a faded memory that surfaced back..?
I don't know what was it. But something had happened and it had changed me for sure (at least my thinking..!!).
And my next status on Facebook was,

"Life is not about waiting for storm to pass. It's about dancing in the rain..!"

And since then, I have been happy. I have been dancing away my troubles, and when it looks like that nothing is happening. Gate is closed, and would not open, I created  a window. I know I am sounding douche, but this is what's happening with me lately. 

What happens next? I have no idea.

Would I be able to sustain this attitude towards life? God only knows.

But one thing is for sure, I am loving it right now..!!

I am actually living my life. 

'LIFE is a love affair. It is Poetry, and it is music. Don't ask ugly questions like what's the purpose? Just Live it, Enjoy it & Love it'

P.S. Hey, I have been busy lately and that's the reason have not been able to update the blog. And the hectic schedule ahead may lead to some more big intervals between the posts.

My Life through a list..!!

Here is a list that a friend mailed me. She asked to strike the one's not completed yet (Yes, the opposite way around..!) and them mail it back to her. I thought of sharing it with you guys..!!

My Life through a list..!!

1. Graduated high school.
2. Kissed someone. (Peck on the cheek..!!)
3. Smoked a cigarette.
4. Got so drunk you passed out.
5. Rode every ride at an amusement park. (I am damn scared of Columbus...!!)
6. Collected something stupid.(Old pens..!!)
7. Gone to a rock concert. (Don't know was it rock or not, but definitely a concert..!!)
8. Helped someone.
9. Gone fishing.
10. Watched four movies one after another. (Well, have seen more than 7..!! Totally a movie buff..!)
11. Lied to someone.
12. Snorted cocaine. (Sounds like a challenge..!!)

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I walk and walk...

Life is like a very very long road,
On which I have to walk,
And yes, I am walking,
Without any feelings,
But I am walking alone,
Without even my shadow,
My own Shadow left me long before,
Its strange but now we are not in touch,
Yeah I am still walking,
To reach at my destination,
But I am still walking alone..

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